Man that hurts!

Falling off the wagon should leave physical marks like, well like you fell off a wagon.  Why is it a wagon anyway?  Wouldn't a bus be faster, and you'd be less likely to fall off of it...just sayin'....but I digress.

So I avoided blogging when I started drinking soda again, kept avoiding it when I couldn't stop eating at 8 pm, and when the new year weekend came and went, I figured I'd get back into it when I settled into a new workout routine.  These things did not happen, neither the blogging, nor the workout routine.

Here is what I know.  I procrastinate.  I like to sit around reading or working on the computer or watching TV rather than hiking mountains, doing triathalons or whatever other outrageously physical activity there is out there.  I also know that I don't like my stationary lifestyle and I make forays to change it but nothing sticks.  Here's why:  Patience.

We all know I don't have any and so when I don't see some tremendous effect in the first week, I lose interest. I allow one bad habit to creep back in, then another, and then I am right back playing FB games for hours on end, stuffing a bag of cookies in my mouth while watching TV and NOT doing anything physical or productive.

That ends.  Actually it already ended.  These are the changes I've made:

1. I gave up FB games two weeks ago.  It's caused me to be on the computer a lot less too.  I am more productive at work since I am not sneaking off to my FB page to send gifts or work on goals or whatever.  
2. I have tried a couple of different meal plans, but one thing is for sure...no more gluten.  I bought Ezekiel bread the other day for the kids, but I am working hard at finding gluten free products (delicious chocolate cookies by Pamela's in case you're interested).
3. I finally called and made my appointment to use the Cross Fit on the Move (CFOTM) Groupon I bought a couple of months ago.  I had my first class tonight.  More on that later.
4. I am working hard at getting enough sleep and not taking stress from home to work and stress from work home at night.  I am enjoying spending time with my family.  Soon I may be ready to venture out into public...not yet though.

I have done these things this month.  I hope with the CFOTM classes, I will actually get my ass moving again.  I have a bet with a friend that the person that loses 10 lbs first gets a new purse from the other person.  Sadly neither of us is doing all that well although she is in a pant size smaller while I am bursting the seams on my size 14's.  She is 5 (or more) inches taller than me - how can she be in clothes smaller than me???  What is up with that?

One of the things we had to do tonight was write down 5 goals that being at CFOTM would help us accomplish.  This is a list of the 4 I wrote down and the one I secretly keep in my head as the REAL motivator for my fitness kick this go round:

1. I want to reach my goal weight of 138 lbs.  This would mean losing (as of this morning's weigh in) 35.2lbs. 
2. I want to be able to run a 1/2 marathon in under 2:15:00 - that would mean improving my record by 5-7 minutes, but would entail getting faster and in better shape to be able to endure a 1/2 marathon.  
3. I want to be in clothes 2-3 sizes smaller (this is an 8 or a 10). 
4. I want to be healthy and strong and fit.

and the 5th reason - I want to look so damned good, 'that' guy will regret not picking me.  You know the guy.  The one that when you think about him you start to salivate, the one that in your current state, he doesn't look twice at you, the one that you would love to have hanging on the line while you make him crazy for you.  Yeah, that guy.  We all have one, had one or want one.  So while I am not doing this to get him back, I am thankful to him for giving me the motivation to do this.  I want to be confident in my skin enough to know he wants me and you know what, I don't want him anymore.

Okay, well I have to get offline now so I can make my bedtime of 10:30.  It's a shame my brain doesn't know it's bedtime yet, but soon, soon I will get my rhythms back.  Nite nite all!

FxF (Fit by Forty)

Annie